This is the end(for real)

I'm really not good at sticking to my word am I?
I say I'll play 1/2 and end up remaining at .50/1
I say I'll take a break when I'm on tilt.. I don't.

Bah.

I lost that €150 to tilt (well I cashed out a whimpering €80 to pay for Nottingham tourney.)

This is truly the end of my little story, for the moment at least.
Its been a good run, and I've had a lot of fun, and the money has been used to pay for things like TV licenses, debts to landlords and friends and poker games where I'm out of my depth (but those were fun nonetheless).

I've enough set aside for both of the Nottingham tournaments, and maybe a wee flurry at the cash tables when I'm down there too. And most obviously, and what I regard as best: I can truly go and get absolutely rat-arsed with the rest of it.

In all likelyhood I will probably realise that, when the dust settles from my most anticipated chaotic drunken-poker-filled weekend, I could do with having more money (you know, for food.)
So no doubt I'll go back on my word and end up playing again.
And it'll probably happen exactly as before - well I really hope it does - starting with that 20 bucks deposit, and ending in tilty crap play and me shouting 'I hate poker!!'

But for now, I'll look back on this last 2 months with fondness, and remember that there were good times, great times at the tables. I love winning money. But also, however silly this may sound, its lovely just to play: it really is. I hope everyone else remembers that too. And I hope I can recapture that feeling.

Until next time....?

Ken.

Where does the wandering poker player go?

Oh jeez I'm so bored. I've got nothing to do. Actually thats a blatant lie, but the things I could do I reject because they bore me.

Long time no see, blogsite.

Guess what?
:You're broke?
Nope!
:You're rich?

Haha Nope! Just the usual self-destructive poker. Tilt poker. Bad poker. Playing terribly. Whatever you want to call it, that thing, I cant get rid of it, happened again. Play well, win money, play too much, get bored, play when bored, lose interest, lose concentration, lose money.

Also, due to using a computer so much, my ability to see details of long distances is rapidly deteriorating. My father assures me this is due to my age (im 103.)
But thats enough about my health.

In case anyone gets this far, without launching themselves off the nearest needlessly dangerous precipice, I might aswell update the figures I seem to always divulge.
I ended up getting £300 in rakeback: Bonus! However, I cashed it all out as leaving it in will surely result in it being frittered. Not made into a supper, with salt n vinegar.
Currently, I am in no condition to play poker. I have €150 in my account. Played a couple of tournies on blonde, always doing alright but at some point making a pointless error due to lack of patience.
Also cashed out some money before that meaning I've made about £1400 from all this pokering nonsense. Pretty schweet, I think I've earned a wee break don't you?


Hmm. Where did all that money go? Do you find it as easy as I do to fritter it away? (possibly literally this time if you really like chip shops)
Makes me feel like I should be on that site playing, playing, playing again and earning and cashing out. But I know thats just nonsense.
So I'm exercising self-control. I've managed to use Football Manager 08 and Darts, as well as actually attending university lectures, as a means of escaping the dreaded poker itch.

I'll eventually go back - I have to soon: the Nottingham trip is booked and I'd like spending/live cash poker money to be able to burn without a reprimand from the sensible part of my brain, (if there is such a thing.)

Anyway, probably increasingly tiresome and boring,

see you all later. Bye bye.